Hey, I am Okay!

Apa kabar blog sayaaaaaaaaaang? Aduh maaf yah aku jarang sekali menjamahmu..

Okay, ada beberapa hal yang mau aku share ke kamu.

Pertama, kemarin tanggal 28 november aku baru sadar kalo ternyata aku udah sebulan putus sama itutu nah kan aku mikir ternyata aku bisa, aku kuat, selama ini susah karena aku masih menutup pikiran aku (kata Arlicca Putri Utami sih gitu) soal gimana nanti tanpa dia?, gimana sama kenangan yang udah lewat? dan ga yakin apakah aku bisa bertahan apa engga??

Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, aku kuat! Baru sebulan sih tapi itu kemajuan besar loh dalam hidupku, dulu-dulu tiap putus wuuuuuh yang tahu gimana dulu waktu aku putus sama N pasti ngecengin deh, nangisnya kejer sampe gerung-gerung huhu >.<

Kadang nih ya kalo papasan sama si R dalem hati suka bilang

"ya ampun dia dulu pernah sama gue, pernah berlaku amat baik dan sangat manisnya ke gue"

atau engga gini

"sekarang apa ya yang lagi dia rasain? gimana perasaannya ke gue saat ini?

masih suka penasaran gitu aku nya, tapi si R mah tetep aja cool, kalo gue negor paling dijawab 'iya' atau 'apa' atau kalo papasan paling sekedar senyum atau bahkan buang muka dianya.

Tapi di luar dari semua itu gue kuat, dan gue harus bisa ngelanjutin hari-hari yang udah berhasil sebulan gue lewati tanpa dia.

Kedua, moso yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I found someone new!
Mari kita namakan the hansome boy itu dengan nama kibi. Heeeeemm panjang ceritanya (aduh mudah-mudahan ga ada yang baca deh maluuu abisan), si kibi ini senior aku, yang udah lama jauh, dahulu kala aku suka sama dia padahal dulu aku ga kenal sama sekali sama dia nah terus beda sekolah, eh sekarang tiba-tiba ketemu lagi di facebook. Ckck!

Aku ga tau kenapa sekarang jadi sering online facebook memantau apakah dia online apa enggak, itu juga aku cuma suka aja kalo dia online dan greet aku di chat terus ngobrolin hal-hal lucu, cumaaaaaa yaaa kalo di sms ya gitu, jutek jawabnya seadanya kaya orang ngga mau sms-an.

Sometimes you can't understand what your feeling say..

Masa depan (yang aku sama sekali ga tau jadinya kaya apa) baiknya mah dijalanin aja yang sekarang, yang aku tahu kibi itu udah kaya tourniquet nya aku, entah apa yang udah dia lakuin sampe dia bisa bikin aku ketawa lagi meskipun cuma lewat chat (seakan dia punya kekuatan magic yang bisa ngebuat aku senyum-senyum sendiri kalo lagi chatting sama dia ihihi), dia bisa bikin aku ngerasain deg-deg-an dan geregetannya orang PDKT meskipun kita ga lagi PDKT, dan dia juga bikin aku semangat lagi.

Entah nantinya dia jadi pacar, sahabat, kakak, atau cuma temen biasa, semuanya balik lagi ke aku, aku sendiri ga berharap apa-apa kok, aku cuma gamau dia ngejauh karena tau perasaan aku atau karena liat fisik aku yang sebenernya (secara selama ini cuma in touch lewat facebook, eh pernah sih dia kerumah tapi cuma sebentar), biarin aja semua kaya gini, berjalan apa-adanya dan tanpa dibuat-buat, karena cuma ngobrol sama dia aja udah bikin aku seneng. Just see me, the way i see you, i think thats enough, my tourniquet :)

Kayaknya ini lagu yang cocok buat perasaan gue sekarang, cihuuuuy...

Colbie Caillat
Magic

You've got magic inside your finger tips
it's leaking out all over my skin
everytime that i get close to you
your makin me weak with the way you
look through those eyes

But all i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above
yeaaaa, oh i need you

I remember the way that you move
your dancing easily through my dreams
its hitting me harder and harder with all your smiles
you are crazy gentle in the way you kiss

All i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above

Oh baby i need you
to see me, the way i see you
lovely, wide awake in
the middle of my dreams

And all i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above

All i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above
yeaaaa, oh oh da da da do do do do do
ahhhhhh, i ..... i need you

Yes, All i see is your face-just see me, the way i see you :)

FULL DAY-GOING OUT

hemmm mari aku jelaskan tentang yang kualami pada hari sabtu, 21 november 2009 kepada kalian semua, cek idaap!

ini foto masih pagi, niat dari rumah emang ikut bedah kampus,


nah udah agak siang, setelah bedah kampus langsung caw ke margo city, tepatnya ke nav : karaokean


ini lagi nyanyi,


kalo foto ini diambil saat durasi karaokean habis dan kita nyempet-nyempetin foto-foto sebelum diusir, heheheee


lalu dari sore sampe malem menghabiskan waktu diacara syukuran ulang tahunnya siti mariam ulfa


sampe dirumah jam setengah sepuluhan, bener-bener seharian ga dirumah. Benar-benar hari yang melelahkan. Oh iya, dihari ini juga terjadi banyak hal aneh yang terkesal menjadi 'kesialan' tapi kita pinter-pinter nyari hikmahnya aja dibalik semua ini. Akhirnya tidur dengan sangat pulasnya, minggu pagi gue terbangun karena dibangunin mama, biasa disuruh ke tukang sayur terus nyetrika fufu -__-

broken - secondhand serenade

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You’re invincible
Yeah, It’s true
It’s in your eyes
Where I find peace

Chorus:
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let’s light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You’re ready to break
Don’t look away.

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we’ll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You’ve been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

comfortable - john meyer

I just remembered that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down aisle five
you looked behind you and smiled back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.

Can't remember what went wrong last September
though i'm sure you'd remind me, if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl I’m still getting used to
My friends all approve, say “she’s gonna be good for you.”
They throw me high fives.
She says the Bible is all that she reads.
and prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party,
And she swears that she’s artsy,
But you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane
Our love was comfortable and so broken in.

She’s perfect
So flawless,
Or so they say.
Hey and
Say, Heyyyyy.

She thinks I can’t see the smile that she’s fakin’
Poses for pictures that aren’t being taken.
I loved you
grey sweat pants
No make up
So perfect
Our love was comfortable and so broken in.

She’s perfect
So flawless
I’m not impressed
I want you back

No, no, no, no I want you back.
Want you back.
Back.

That you were my first love
Is just dumb luck.
A technicality.
You were ahead of me.

That you were my first love.
Is just dumb, dumb, stupid luck.
A technicality.
You will always be ahead of me.
Oh, oh, tell me.
Why I have to practice on you.
Why I have to practice on your heart.
Oh.

I will be - Avril Lavigne

There's nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you'd go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing ok

I thought that I had every thing I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breath cause your hear with me
And if I let you down I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing ok

Cause with out you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I got
You're all I want
Yeah
And with out you I don't know what I'll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

And I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing okay

I will be (I'll be) all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing okay